this is an open letter to one of my oldest friends and one of my best friends…. you both left me ~ and if you don’t think we were all connected, it seems [i found out today] that you, dino, died on sally’s birthday…
i miss you both ~ for a bunch of different reasons, but none more important that the fact that i loved you both.
sal, when i went to san diego to see the aggies play san diego state [which turned out to be an ass kicking on their part] it was the first time i had been to the stadium without you… that wasn’t the most difficult part. my sweet brother took us to dinner at sally’s and we sat in the [general area] of our favorite table. the menu [as you know] isn’t quite the same as when we used to go there, but the place is still the same and i missed you being there ~ having a bloody mary and eating blackened shrimp caesar salad…[without the stinking anchovies] i had some kind of scallop thing and we toasted you. then after dinner my sweet brother drove us over to the parking lot by the midway [i couldn't figure out what was going on] he had a cooler in the [supervisor] truck and he took out some o’doules and opened them ~ when i turned around i noticed that we were right by the hill where we used to watch the parade for the holiday bowl… it was dark and i walked over there with my o’doules and stood on ‘our spot’ and boobed like a baby, i missed you so much! then a remarkable think happened ~ they started shooting fireworks off of the deck of the midway ~ just like they were doing that for you or like you told them to or whatever, but it was wonderful ~ you know one thing that i really regret, is that we never went to balboa park and laid on the grass with a big pile of one dollar bills and looked up at the sky and bet on what kind of plane would fly over next [like we always said we would]… i promise you that someday i am going to do that and you’d better bet me from heaven, which won’t really be fair because you will be able to see the planes before i do!
dino, i found out today that you died on sally’s birthday, just 3 days short of your own… and you managed to get out earlier than your parole date! and this time they can’t tack on another 8 years! i sincerely hope there was a nice stray dog waiting for you on the rainbow bridge and you now have all the things you wanted that you were never able to get in this life… i am going to write your son a letter tomorrow and see if i can find out where you are buried… i would at least like to know that. i am [just] a little pissed because apparently you never did let anyone [but me] know what your wishes were. well, like i always said when i missed one of your phone calls ~ it’s not like i can just call you back… things are just things and i’m going to quit fretting about it, because it is way out of my control!
well, my friends, i toast you both, for the things we had and the things we planned that never came to pass. i cherish all the memories and the love we shared… you were so different and so much a part of my life, i miss you and i know you are both now at peace… remember when i dream about you, wave and i will wave back!
Hugs.
This made me cry. I miss her too. I have thought of her often this month. Mostly in the last week really. Not to mention she is looking at me everytime I open my locker. The other day I had a chat with her and I let her know what I thought.
I love you KP. You are a good friend to them and to me.
Annika I have that talk with her every morning. Mostly I grumble (it goes something like you bitch how could you just leave me here? You knew how much I loved you!!!) I have been missing her a great deal lately as well. All the people in the valley that drive green blazers probably wonder what the heck when they see my hand shoot up to wave and then reality hits and it gets dropped back down.
Kim I am so glad you finally at least know something about your friend Dino’s death.
I love you girls!!!!
What a very sincere and touching letter. You know how much my heart aches for you. I wish I could be there just to comfort you and let you know you are not alone. I do believe I can understand what you are going through and what the loss feels like. I’ve only dealt with shit like this since I was 17 years old. )-:}
Rest assured that you were the best and truest friend either one of them had and they loved you, and will miss you as much as you do them.
I’ve always felt that something was missing in my life. I realized what it was. It was you. Thanks for welcoming me back. (-:}
I love you, Kimie
Watch who you Ȭ